DYING

Death. We all experience a certain death in our lives. I’m not only talking about the ones when we lose our breath, I’m talking about dying in our soul, dying in our feelings, dying in our sins, dying in our hatred. I just finished watching an episode in One Tree Hill and that episode really strucked me hard and deep, like the way Leo Buscaglia in his book (*Loving, Living, Learning) mentioned about a young student dying without anyone noticing it.
It is really sad to realize that one could kill himself/herself due to feeling unloved or unnoticed, but hey it is reality, cruel and insane it may seem…death comes to every individual who felt he/she is alone in the battle and quest for a life of love. Every act of suicide indicates a lesson to be learned, that each one is responsible for one’s insane act. Emotional neglect, social isolation, loss, failure, insecurity, frustration, etc…all are pre-cursors to that depressing feeling of being unloved and without love that eventually leads to the act of suicide. Death in one’s heart is more fatal than that of dying due to physical malfunction, cause it challenges everyone to analyze things and rise above the adversities and start healing the illness in the society. Suicide confuses and awakens everyone from leniency.
I remembered the news about the person who committed suicide by jumping off the MRT station at Shaw Blvd. It really made the headlines in the evening news, newspapers and even the chatrooms. Everyone is bothered by it, it triggered certain emotional reactions, good or bad…it did awaken many of us to the sad and cruel reality that on our world, many died as they got drowned by their emotional baggage that caused much pain, making it easier for them to end their lives, believing a better life awaits them in the aftermath.
So, what can we possibly do about it? Perhaps, we could start by giving life to others with our smiles or simple acts of kindness in order to avoid that depressing feeling of wanting to die. We may have not notice it, but at certain points in our lives, we have caused an emotional death to another by our indifference or feelings of grandiosity. I think it is high time to make that change, give others the reason to live. And I’m sure with this sincere and loving act you’re about to share, would ultimately give you that same feeling of wanting to live more.